i know my blog is dead

yes yes, i know my blog is like sooo dead nobodi reads it. :P
well.. im the kind that can work 24/7 on something im interested in, and then drop it all the moment i lose interest.

well there are a few reasons i dun blog often
1 internet connection sux so bad i cant get on msn for 30 minutes.
2 i dont want to blog about everything i do
3 no interest :p
4 rather go lepak somewhere
5 got burnt n bitten once cuz i blogged

well this previous semester (jan 08)
i slept early - like 1-2am, compared to prev sem where i slept @ 4am almost everyday

i studied for the longest period in my life, no joke. 2 solid weeks of studying law. thats what law does to u :|

i got to know some guys from the cf more - jon, vincent, jared, alex, n fred
the funni thing is that all of them stay on the same floor.. so when its dinner time, i walk down to the 1st floor, then go to alvins room.
when the ibans are good to go, we walk 3 rooms down n bang up ivan
then go 2 rooms down, ask jared to join us, most of da time he doesnt tho
another 2 rooms down the hall, jons room.
go 6 rooms down, alex's room.
so thats how we call ppl for supper.

alvin and i downloaded 30+ christian albums.
thats more than 1song/day
which brings me to...
why do christians, especially those around me, only listen listen to hillsongs and planetshakers?
sure, they are good n solid n stuff. n their music can be sung in church. yet there are so many other good christian artistes, whose songs can be sung in church, IMO
well there was chris tomlin, whom i listened to around 2004.
4 years down the road, how great is our god has become the new theme song for some churches, chris tomlin now joins the list that includes hillsongs and planetshakers.
however i have seen certain songs of other artistes that are sung in church.
e.g
jared anderson - rescue, amazed
jeremy camp - beautiful one
casting crowns - who am i
delirious - majesty, did you feel the mountains tremble, history maker

dont get me wrong, im not saying hills or shakes are wrong, or that any 'christian' artiste should be sung in church (think switchfoot? lol)
i juz wish to see youths listen to more christian music, rather than to secular music.
when i moved into sg, i see that the sg youths are more exposed compared to malaysia
i know, and im not boasting, that there are christian artistes that are comparable to secular music. sure, not everyone would appreciate n enjoy the music i like, but christian music is just so wide rather than just the few we normally hear.

thank god Passion is coming to malaysia on august 3rd (so i heard)
all u guys who see this should make it a point to come. its a christian conference that reaches out to uni students in USA. this year they're having a world tour and thank god KL is in their list. hopefully the youths that go there will be exposed to unfamiliar songs.

Q: why dont u check out some other christian music? they're good u know..
A: i do, i listen to Chris Tomlin..
Thinks: the afters, david crowder, matt redman (o the wonderful cross - 2 thumbs up), starfield (my current fav)

i can already smell the flak coming in after this posting.. i juz hope people wont misconstrue this post. I JUZ HOPE U GUYS WILL LISTEN TO MORE CHRISTIAN MUSIC

dead blog.. arise

yea yea i know its been a long time..

hmmm
3months since last post..
had a slightly stressful coll term.. cuz we had exams
but then again that exam just contributes 10% to my finals..

hav been playing cs alot over the LAN in hostel.. n i mean a lot!
like 3 hours a day (no joke)

n i discovered *ahem the wonders of rapidshare.com n megaupload.com
:D

been downloading a lot of stuff from these sites...

a bit saddend.. cuz a few of my good frens are leaving inti.. lynne, japheth, n hinloong n johnny who hav left...
life moves on....

dis coming semester, quite a few are leaving too.. sigh.. life.. what a ABCDEFG

but theres stuff to cheer..
got to know an iban called alvin..
didnt actually know him beforehand cuz he's quite in public..
found out a lot about him, got to know him n kelvin better this semester.. considering our term in inti will be about the same (ekdrick not 4gotten too)
i find a whole lot of similiarity between us..
we can discuss lots of stuff, christian stuff together... lookin forward to growing spiritually with these kind of frens :D:D

discovered a few great christian artistes (apart from dc*b)
rush of fools
brian littrell
starfield
leeland


yea yea.. some have been around for sometime.. but its all new to me..

oh.. since the exam had so little weight, n i heard dat most ppl flunk it (its our first real test in law) i took my foot off the gas... so i gotta work hard dis semester (yea rite!)
the only way thats gonna happen is when god intervenes.. nid ur help god!

lots of stuff are actually spining in my head now..
the 3 projects were supposed to do during the HOLIDAYS..
my future: what do i do after i study? continue 4 a higher grade? work in uk? malaysia? singapore?
my destiny - why am i here on earth? to enjoy life?

one particular incident is quite permanently etched in my brain
i went to yrc, i met charlie, a sri lankan..
he asked me dis question.. if im in england, n im gonna sit 4 the final paper.. n god juz slams da brakes n says eric, come serve me.. wat would i do?

im not mulling on what my answer will be.. it has always been send me, i will go!
but my question is deeper.. i may be studyin law.. but would i end up practicing law?
would i end up a lawyer? or something more? or something less in the eyes of the world, like a pastor who gave up law a day b4 his finals?

life is unpredictable.. dats de scary part..


niways.. since de hols, been juz bumming around.. staring @ my comp..
thx god that he has helped me overcome certain weaknesses in my life :D
its amazing how god can work anywhere..
some ppl expect a huge transformation to happen in big events, like a church camp, or when a special speaker is in town, or when u get prayed for..

n yet, heres the story.. i went to a youth outreach, where the youth are supposed to invite friends.. i was thinkin well i x knw anybody in sg.. but my old fren, yunsheng calls me a week b4 the meeting n says he wants to follow me to church.. n actually there are a couple of guys i do know in my condo dat i could hav invited to the outreach..
yet i didnt take the initiative to invite.. no biggie, aint the 1st time ive been ashamed..

yet as i went to the outreach, i saw ppl like veronica n jocelyn bring in 4 frens each..
others didnt bring as many as 4 ppl per youth or smthn like that..
im not judging anybody.. but it struck me that these 2, that are relatively new in god, juz brought people in while i, an old believer, didnt even bother n juz gave an excuse that i dont know anybody..

n as i got back to my room, i was smsin veronica about the 4 guys that she invited (respect!)

n she jus says.. we hav god to talk to when we are in trouble. yet those that dunno jesus hav nobodi except friends to talk to..

it just hit me.. a simple faith is just enough.. n it made me wonder, when was the last time i thanked god? the last time i sat down n communed with him (fyi, i havent in a long time)
sometimes i was just scared to approach god as i was sinning (go figure)..
n yet that nite as i prayed to god, i realised he just took away my sinful desires.. now its exactly 1 week.. n still going strong.. i used to ask sebastian how god helped him (another long story) n he said god just took the desires or thoughts away from him.. now i have experienced it myself.. :D

n throughout this week as i communicated with god more, i just started to giv thanks to him naturally.. i noticed it in a small incident where i just uttered thank god.. i didnt even plan to like give thanks in everything, n yet it came so naturally..

god is faithful.. ive been in the wilderness for so long, n yet in 1 day he has drawn me back to him.. :D

i hope this encourages those christians that are worn out by time, sin, or whateverelse.. that our only hope is still god..

a song that relates to this..
rush of fools - undo










alvin with the bwin shirt, ivan n me..










banquet pix.. :D

oh the glory of it all - by David Crowder

totally awesome.. that is why i am gettin remedy when it hits mas/sg!!
crowder simpson!!

post church camp

argh.. so tired after church camp
yet camp was good...
had more fellowship but worked more...
went to jb from sg last saturrday..
den crashed @ Youth Recreational Center (yrc) with sebas, jason, thomas, chien chi, charlie...
played ping pong n foosball throughout da nite b4 slpin..
den had a 4 hr road trip 2 da camp site....

fyi, we were meant to go earlier to set up the speakers etc.

when we reach there, we find that some government agency is using the hall and wont surrender it till next day when the campers REACH!! @ least we got rooms..
so we went swimming..

1st nite (b4 official start of camp)
met up with joanne n joshua who came earlier..
also played pool cuz it was raining the whole nite..
couldnt do much work.. could only move all da stuff into the store n lay the cables n juz rush everything the next day..

n the F&B manager told us dat it rained everyday so they were scared cuz the organizers wanted some outdoor tables.. so ps rajen matt juz said we'll pray that there'll be no rain.. n there was no rain.. praise the lord..

then the next day we played beach soccer.beach rugby, water polo, n beach soccer again..
i have a bruised toe, aching muscles and a fingermark-bruise on my arm...

woke up late 4 devotion both days.. 1st was athens didnt wake me up n 2nd was athens alarm didnt work.. lol.. n jason came to knock me up in my room cuz the projector wasnt working.. @ 650 in da morn.. Zzz...

n i got to know charlie. a guy from sri lanka, doin atcem.. n he actually went to edge when i was in malaysia...
hes a great guy.. n juz loves to take pix n vids..
pix of other camp days..
there are more pix.. pray that ill get some..

sadly less youths came dis time cuz spm trials are next week.. yet i still had a lot of fellowship (the most in a family camp 4 me).. maybe cuz there are less people so we get to be closer..
pam seaward was awesome.. yet jason n athens n occassionally ps rajen n ps boey slept.. haha..
but i didnt slp in during any sermon.. :)

packin n unpackin the equipment was juz tiringly crazy.. yet it was fun.. got to learn a lot on how to set up the audio etc.. actually i always wanted to go to camps earlier to help out but there was always too many ppl..

now im back in singapore, i want a new fone!! my dad has verbally agreed.. i think i can get it b4 i leave 4 nilai again...
hopefully u guys will be seeing me holding this fone soon... the best part is my roommate wants the exact same model n colored fone... hope i beat him to it.. :P

better slp now..

~smile~

oh..n athen sang gay song in de hotel lounge.. westlife song.. omg!!!!! it was like clarence walked into the lounge while athens was singing n clarence was "y is he singing a gay song"
n im a pornstar..

1st few days in sg

alrite.. my holidays just started, but so many plans popping out edi..

ok.. fri, left for jb from seremban (egg)..
bus was late, as usual.. Zzz

fun started on saturday..
had to wlk from jb church to youth center.. argh... 25 mins of walking.. under the 2pm sun..
but had fun meeting the guys..
played foosball till my wrist hurt, n played ping pong till m @$$ hurt (and still does!)

n i found out theres a church camp during my hols! 21st-23rd aug.. yay..
signed up edi.. kind of unexpected cuz church camps are normally around june..

n juz watched rush hour 3 wit sheena fabian n hei wai..

Song of the month:
this beautiful republic (artiste)
new year (title)
even heroes need a a parachute (album)

Love, should it be so tragic?
Should it be dramatic?
Should it take such a toll on you?

Trust, why is our trust faded?
Jesus says to trade them
Trade our scars for His promises

Chorus:
So give Him all your love this time
And give Him everything you are this time
You've never been so lucky
To have a friend like Jesus

Wait, how long will you wait here?
Your life longs for a new year
Your healing must begin somewhere

Everything you could ever want
Is right before you
He is close to your broken heart
You're right where you should be

realli great song.. check it out in imeem

n im goin for a whatever event on 25th.. it is somehow linked to politics (not directly)
n the youth in singapore are having this 'adult youth' banquet thing on 31st august.. i guess ill be goin.. so my weeks are quite packed..

now why did i bring my notes again??

oh yeah.. to file.. :D

n the abcdefg aircon is not working.. n its not the one in my room dats out of order.. yet im slpin wit de stars n a very noisy fan tonite..

argh..



~smile~

oh! n i 4got.. it took me like forever to get m laptop linked to my wireless router..
to dilute the problem, i was supposed to find the geek-name of my laptop so i can tell the router to allow that geek-name..
i searched high n low 4 those numbers.. in the end all i had to do was to mouse over dis thing n the numbers will show.. argh.. thank god its over

n today i went to take de bus.. less than 1 min later it came.. the longest i had to wait 4 this route was half an hour.. thank god.. *random*

stooopid wkend!

argh..
theres this youth concert in my old church in jb on sat (maybe its ended by now)..
i realli wanted to go n meet my old frens..

the plan:-
i)go back jb on fri afternoon, sebas would pick me from larkin, then bum @ his place
ii) sat mornin, meet up wit old school mates (gokhau howyee n co)
iii) sat evening go concert, surprise as many ppl as possible
iv) sun take bus back after service


perfect.. no?
then my parents call on toosday.. they say the're gonna come to nilai to find me dis weekend..
so i tell them i wanna go back jb..
then they got realli pissed becuz i didnt plan to go sg.. (look @ da plan, how am i supposed to go to sg???)
i mean what time would be better to visit my jb frens all in one day? if i want to do so i gotta come over from sg some other time...
then they go on with the friends or family choice etc..

so i decided..
i would have gone back to jb if dis happened in da past..
now i dun want to get into extra trouble.. so i just scrapped the whole plan n stayed in nilai..


then de fam call me on fri, saying their bringing me up to kl..
what??!!
going up with them would only make it more boring n make me regret..
so i guess they gave n take so they didnt push it further..
then saturday they dont come..
then they wanna come on sunday lunchtime..
that time church just starts..
so they decide not to come to nilai tto visit me after all (without conflict of any sort)

now, my parents arent visiting me.. but why am i still in nilai when i could have been with all my old friends???????


argh..
instead of all da fellowship, i spent da day slpin in hostel, n starin @ my lappy (movies)
all my pals are in kl or are studying for exams...


dis weekend totally sux..

)=

feeling moody..
sigh..
dats all..
maybe cuz its a monday..
or maybe cuz i have stuff that im supposed to do but im not thinkin bout it..
perhaps cuz the sem is gonna end n i might not c some cool people next sem..

ish.. feel like skipping all classes today..

~cant smile~